After you die, it is believed that you have 7 minutes of brain activity left inside you, and in the 7 minutes you experience your entire life over, in a kind of dream… Because in a dream time is stretched.
So if this is the case, what if right now you’re in that 7 minutes. How do you know if you’re alive or just reliving old memories.
“You must be ready to burn yourself in your own flame;
how could you become new if you haven’t first become ashes?”—Friedrich Nietzsche (Thus Spoke Zarathustra) (via moreofamore, sex-death-rebirth) (via stonedfoxx)
the feeling i’m feeling right now is literally making me sick its so strange like its a mixture between feeling bittersweet and guilty
its sad that i’m leaving the place i’ve lived for the last 10 months but i’m also happy to return to the place i call home- bittersweet
i’ve been in charleston at school for the last 10 months and i feel like i’ve wasted 20,000+ dollars because my grades aren’t where they should be and i can’t blame anyone but myself. college is so different than high school because of the load of responsibility you take on when you graduate hs and actually start college
like, missing class, falling behind, not studying, not putting your all into school is so easy and unfortunately has become the norm for me- which has never been the case for two reasons: in high school i was never allowed the opportunity to do those things and now in college its so much easier to fuck up because the decision to fuck up is left up to you and there is literally no one who can stop you
summer is finally here and its the season of relaxation but after a year of relaxing and not doing what i’m here to do- do i deserve three months of doing nothing? i personally don’t believe i do and i feel guilty that i’m about to partake in something that is a gift to students who worked hard the other 9-10 months out of the year at school ugh
but honestly, instead of sulking and dwelling on the past all summer i’m just gonna use these three months to get my act together and officially convert from a careless child to a young adult- or a happy median :)
i really hope i can get my shit together in the fall
i have no choice but to get my shit together before my return in the fall