i BEGGED for a job for so long. i got one, but i never worked. i had the job for three months and only worked twice. i got second job, i had the job for two days and within those days i did orientation, training and i worked a five hour shift. now i work every single weekend 9 hours a Saturday and Sunday for the next two months..
i didn’t start my homework until about midnight i want to say and even then i continued to get distracted by the internet and everything else! then i started to video chat on oovoo, then it ended then it started again and that went for over an hour. did i get my project done? no. i was working on it while i was talking, but my mind doesn’t work like that, so i stopped way too much.
its finished, and i bet it sucks more ass than anything. midway though my video chat i realized i had to study vocab for tomorrow’s quiz. fml. i yelled the F word 4 times. i’m screwed. then i remembered the time i forgot to study for vocab and i remembered the morning of the quiz. lucky for me, i had english FIRST period = quiz FIRST period. i had no practice with them since i got all the review work answers from the internet. i studied all morning and ended up doing fine.
so this time should work out hopefully. ugh its now 2:19 and my thighs are hot from my laptop and my work still isn’t done, but yet I’m blogging.
the ultimate cure would be for my mom to take my laptop away, seriously.
So how do you show up to the first meeting of the year and expect to become an officer? YOU DON’T. THATS FUCKING BULLSHIT! DON’T COME TO THE MEETING AND HOPE TO BE ELECTED JUST SO IT LOOKS GOOD ON YOUR FUCKING APPLICATION FOR COLLEGE (SPEAKING TO SENIORS)! I MEAN.. THERE’S NOT THING WRONG WITH HAVING THAT AS A SEPERATE MOTIVE TO WANT TO BECOME AN OFFICER, BUT YOUR FIRST MOTIVE SHOULD BE, THE FACT THAT YOU CARE ABOUT THE GD CLUB.. RIGHT?! NO.. BECAUSE BITCHES DON’T CARE ABOUT ANYTHING BUT THEMSELVES. FUCK THEM ALLLLLLLL. IF YOU SKIPPED OUT ON THE MEETINGS FOR THE PAST FEW YEARS, BECAUSE YOU COULDN’T COME BECAUSE OF “PRACTICE” OR SOME SHIT, THEN WHY COME THIS MOTHERFUCKING YEAR?! THIS YEAR WON’T BE ANY DIFFERENT! YOU CAN’T BE A FUCKING ABSENTEE OFFICER!! I’M LIVID. LIVID. ANGRY. PISSED. ALL THAT SHIT!!!!!!!! I’VE BEEN ATTENDING MEETINGS SINCE I WAS A FRESHMAN AND I LOOKED UP TO BRYNDLE (CLUB PRESIDENT WHEN I WAS A FRESHMAN)! SHE WAS AMAZING, LOUD, CONFIDENT, EVERYTHING I AM TODAY! I LOVE IT! SHE’S GONE NOW, AND NOW ITS MY TURN TO TAKE THE THROWN! DON’T CHA THINK?!
This is just too much stress, if one of these ABSENTEE/THIRSTY SENIORS win over me, my VP or my secretary then YOU BESS BELIEVE I WILL RUN THEM THROUGH THE DIRT.
Actually, I’ll probably be a TRUE president and cooperate. Who knows, maybe I will win. I don’t know, but for now I’m panicking and I’m PISSED OFF.
This post is very unPresidently like but I’M JUST REALLY NOT LIKING THIS. AT ALL.
The following may be long, but I spent at least half an hour organizing it. If you’re AT ALL interested in psychology, this should interest you.
I read an article in Oprah magazine that inspired me to share with Tumblr the concept of schematas. In cognative science and/or psychology, a schema is a mental structure that represents some aspect of the world, a structured cluster of pre-convicted ideas, an organized thought pattern or behavior, or perhaps even one’s own rationalization for the representation of oneself. In other words, a schema is basically your “view” on the world and the past life experiences that have caused you to feel this way.
For example…for everyone out there who considers themself secluded, isolated, apathetic, and insensitve to emotions that take great control such as love and devotion, you can probably blame your schema. Schemas are used to diagnose otherwise fatal cracks in relationships - not only between couples, but between one and society and one and oneself.
Schemas relate to sociology because there is such a thing as bad schema chemistry. It is people’s rationalizations that cause conflict within a relationship.
Schematas (plural for schema) are divided up into 6 main categories: abandonment, entitlement, defectiveness, subjugation, self-sacrifice and punitiveness. Some schemas may apply to you more than others. To find out, here is your very own schema test! The rules are simple, just add up the numbers and refer to the legend to see how well the schema applies to you.
1 = Completely untrue of me 2 = Mostly untrue of me 3 = Slightly more true than untrue 4 = Moderately true of me 5 = Mostly true of me 6 = Describes me perfectly
Emotional Deprivation: __ Most of the time, I haven’t had someone to nurture me, share him/herself with me, or care deeply about everything that happens to me __ For much of my life, I haven’t felt that I am special to someone. __ For the most part, I have not had someone who really listens to me, understands me, or is tuned in to my true needs and feelings.
Entitlement: __ I hate to be constrained or kept from doing what I want. __ I feel that I shouldn’t have to follow the normal rules and conventions that other people do. __ I can’t tolerate other people telling me what to do.
Abandonment: __ I find myself clinging to people I’m close to, because I’m afraid they’ll leave me. __ I don’t feel that important relationships will last; I expect them to end. __ I feel addicted to partners who can’t be there for me in a committed way.
Defectiveness: __ I’m unworthy of the love, attention, and respect of others. __ I am inherently flawed and defective. __ No matter how hard I try, I feel that I won’t be able to get a significant other to respect me or feel that I am worthwhile.
Subjugation: __ In relationships, I let the other person have the upper hand. __ I worry a lot about pleasing other people so they won’t reject me. __ I will go to much greater lengths than most people to avoid confrontations.
Unrelenting Standards: __ I must be the best at most of what I do; I can’t accept second best. __ I feel there is constant pressure for me to achieve and get things done. __ My relationships suffer because I push myself so hard.
Mistrust/Abuse: __ I feel that I cannot let my guard down in the presence of other people, or else they will intentionally hurt me. __ I have a great deal of difficulty trusting people. __ If someone acts nicely towards me, I assume that he/she must be after something.
Self-Sacrifice: __ I put others’ needs before my own, or else I feel guilty. __ I’m the one who usually ends up taking care of the people I’m close to. __ I’m only happy when those around me are happy.
Here’s the scoring: 3-8: Low; this schema probably does not apply to you 9-11: Medium; this schema may have some relevance to you 12-13: High; this schema is probably very significant to you 14-18: Very High; this is likely one of your core schemas
There’s a reason we’re all this way, you know.
I’ll blog my results. KUDOS/PROPS/LOVE for Katherine Stein. I absolutely love this and anything related to Psychology. Hence, my interest me wanting to be a Psychologist when I grow older.
The one where I get that itch, when I feel something is coming into style or is about to be popular.. YEAH, that one.
Well last month I was at Saks Off the 5th! (Saks Fifth Avenue Outlet, basically) and I saw this Burberry trench coat, I LOVED IT! It was obv too much, so I don’t have it. Its time for Fall/Winter 2011 collections to come out and they’re filled with trench coats!
one of my many faves: (the image on the left is the favorite; i was too lazy to crop the right image out)
I LOVE THEM! Trust me… I HAVE THE ITCH. TRENCH COATS ARE IN!
another food was added to my list of “NEVER AGAIN” foods
Maggiano’s Fettuccine Alfredo - NEW!
I had the WORST experience today. My mother was watering for it. I ate it and it was gross, but I thought it would get better- it didn’t. 30 minutes later I wanted to go home and “use” the bathroom. YA KNOW. I was gassy. It was TERRIBLE. I’m lactose intolerant so the cheese and what not just tore me to shreds. I got home and I wanted to vom. Whenever I think or smell it, I feel the urge to barf everywhere.